Not feeling very centered this morning. I had difficulty falling asleep last night. Why did I have trouble getting to sleep? Cause I stayed up watching NYPD Blue and the 11 o’clock news. I was over stimulated by the time I turned off the TV and tried to fall asleep. When will I learn that watching late night TV just before falling asleep is just not conducive to falling asleep and getting a good nights rest?

A more skillful way of taking care of myself would be to watch one show in the 9 o’clock hour and then allowing time for my mind to settle down by doing a little zazen before going to bed. But that’s hard. I’ve tried to do that and my body just doesn’t want to get up out of the bed and sit. I see now that this is something I can work with. That is an ego-concern that I can let go of just for that moment. Then in the next moment, I am sitting on the zafu. Working with my aversion to getting out of my comfortable position sitting there in bed is also my practice. Often I think of the actual sitting as just my practice. But actually getting to my sitting is also my practice.